I came from a family whom my mother is a Christian while my father is a free thinker. When I was young, my mother took me and my siblings to Sunday school every sunday and she also taught us about god and often told us stories from the bible. At the very young age of 6, I have already heard of Christ. However when I reach the age of 13, I stop going to sunday school because I thought that I’m already a teenager and Sunday school is for kids bellow 13. I also felt lazy to wake up early to attend church. From that time onward, I have never been to any church or sunday school for 6 whole years.
Even thought I got to know Christ at a very young age, however I did not really commit myself to Jesus. I mean that I actually believe that Jesus Son of God came down to Earth and died for out sins on the cross, but i never really surrender myself to Jesus until I went to NS (National Service)
Actually im suppose to be joining NS in 2006, however i got the second batch while i have already started my foundation in HELP, hence i have to differ it. In the beginning of year 2007, i have been looking forward for my degree, I even attended the orientation and one day before i enroll those subject which i had discussed with my friends, then out of a sudden I received a call from the JLKN (Jabatan Latihan Khidmat Negara), they told me that i have to report myself at Camp Paya Indah on Sunday that week. I was so shock when i heard about it, because after 2 days i have to go for NS. That time i felt so down and disappointed, because i have to leave my friends from foundation and im not ready for NS at all.
When i enter the camp, i was asked to fill in a form and when i reach the religion part, i started to doubt myself, in my heart i was asking myself “am I really a Christian? I have not attend any Sunday schools or church for 6 years how can i call myself a Christian?” however I still wrote my religion as Christian.The first week of NS for me was so tiring, i felt as if im suffering there. On the second week of Friday during our Class Kuliah (every religion has their own class on Friday evening). For Christian, Kim was our so call teacher. On that day she said something that really goes through my mind over and over again, she asked us “Have you ever wondered why God send you here (NS)? There is always a reason all of u were brought here” after the class, i kept thinking of the reason God had send me to NS. Then i finally figure it out, God is actually giving me a second chance to honor him, in NS i really got to know more about God when we went Church every Sunday and through a very good friend of mine, Jason Tang. Then I start to surrender myself to God, praying to God asking him for forgiveness, inviting Him into my life and thank God for giving me a second chance, brining me back to serve Him. Since the day i surrender myself to God, every day in NS was a fun and nice day, i don’t feel the suffering any more but i actually enjoyed it, there is always something new to learn each day. Because i know that God is always beside me and he always do what is best for us.
God never leave me lonely, He is kind and he provides what is best for us. When i start my degree, there are 2 of my friends from foundation is in the same intake with me, 1 of them financial problem so he was not able to attend the January intake. And there was another unexpected thing, it was one of my secondary friend (he just got his STPM result) who live near my house taking the same course as me and we are in the same classes. At that time i was so happy because im not only not being left alone but im being bless with another friend that was from my secondary school and staying nearby my place, and now we car pool to college.
After my NS i return home as a new born person, every morning i willingly help my mother to hang cloths without her asking me to do so, before this i will always felt irritated when my mother ask me to help her in house work even during my holidays. I also became a more understanding person, not simply getting angry with my younger brother when he did some small mistake. I have also learned how to forgive more often. And now i realize that God has been good to me all the while, even at the time I have not surrender myself to him, he gave me a good result in all my exams and even gives me education in University. Now I have became a cheerful and joyful person without worries compared to the old me which is always grouchy and anxious. I really thank God for not giving up on me and blessing me all the time.
December 28, 2007 at 3:58 pm
Very encouraged by your testimony, how God put you in NS and saw you through with His greater purpose behind. Continue to grow strong brother!
December 29, 2007 at 1:27 am
Thx for the encouragement, I am now still a very immature Christian, and I hope to grow more while we have fellowship.
December 29, 2007 at 8:27 pm
i feel very encouraged after reading ur testimony.KEEP ON GOING,brother..DUN GIVE UP!!i always think n guess wat happen to u when u r in NS cos u r so different after the NS.finally i noe what was happen to u?PRAISE THE LORD!!finally i noe what is happen.can c that u r growing..sometime i look at myself..haiz…but thanks GOD that he never give up on me also..he put u in 1 part of my life..i also want to repent n really surrender all to CHRIST!!still learning..thank you!u noe how i find out this wedsite?i think is a plan for GOD,cos it is an accident!!
December 30, 2007 at 12:29 am
Tiff:
I am glad that God used me to encourage people like you out there.
Btw can i know who are you ?
December 30, 2007 at 11:11 pm
i m the 1 who stay with u nearly 3 to 4 years…u guess la…wakaka..
December 31, 2007 at 12:16 am
Ooooooohhhhhhhh………………..
January 4, 2008 at 9:08 am
miss those days we had together in NS! Hehe, miss CF and the church!
January 4, 2008 at 9:49 am
Hey Celestia, thx for dropping by =).
I miss those days too, thx for all the encouragement, u guys really helps me grow a lot spiritually.
April 8, 2008 at 7:09 pm
Now I only know you got your own testimony here! hahax.. My Bad sorry! hahax.. Oh ya, very encourage by your testimony! seriously! hahax.. actually, I heard this testimony before la.. Donno when is it! hahax Sound so familiar! lolx.. ok la .Bye~
August 1, 2008 at 6:33 pm
God is the god who never leave us alone..
In our journey with him, sure wil face some difficult in our life..but remember ,when u honour him then he wil honour u.. and he wil bring to the others level of spiritual life.. aMEN?
So keep walk in this christ journey..is not easy but thought him who give u strength u sure can walk till the end..Jia you..
continue to be salt n light to tis world.
i believe thought ur life ,others can get encourgement , hope ,blessing and others..
thanks god put u in my life..:)
August 2, 2008 at 12:55 pm
Madonna :
Amen.Thanks for the encouragement…..
Glad to know you too and I am really grateful that God put u in my life too haha,
God sure is good, and he is always with us. Let us continue to walk with God and shine for him =). Take care
September 22, 2008 at 10:16 am
hey dude. dropping by your blog man. really like your testimony. very uplifting.
November 14, 2008 at 10:17 am
Hi Soul,
I happened to come by your site during a web search. Very encouraged to see a Christian blog. Made me think of starting an online journal myself!
I hope all’s well where u are.
I’m calling from Brisbane, Australia, originally fr msia. Originally fr HELP, come to think abt it.. but got saved in Ozzieland!
Encouraged by the sincerity in ur sharing.
take care, LS