Psalm 4:4

“In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah”

For no reason today I felt so angry, my body felt so hot, so restless, my blood is boiling, my thought became violent, my mind had gone wind, just feel like punching something with all my strength. Even when I was driving, I just speed like mad but I don’t realize that until people tell me I am speeding. It is as if the evil side of me had take over my mind, I did things without realizing it !

Couldn’t understand myself anymore ! So sick thinking of myself, I had been changing drastically, not better but worst! What is going on? I will only realize my mistake and actions when I come to reflect on it. My heart is yearning for something I know it’s impossible to get, but why still do I cling on to it !!!!!! Why can’t I just let go of it? It had cause lots of misery, worries and trouble to me, it had became the priority of my life, it made me forsake God, being so self-centered.

All I can do now is pray and ask God to empty me, take away all my desire and worry. Please do keep me in your prayer as well whenever you think of me, thanks.

Psalm 139:23-24

“23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.”

I’ve had just enough of the spotlight when it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood.
And I’ve tasted my share of the sweet life and the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough.
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change.

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you.

I’ve seen just enough of the quick buys of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away.
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change.

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you.

Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you, compared to you.
Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you so why surrender all?

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be
Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you.
Oh, filled with you.
Empty me.

EMPTY ME