What is sense? I don’t really know how to explain it, but in my opinion I think it is some kind of human instinct. Well the sense I am saying is from our 5 senses, some people call it the “6th sense”.
I don’t know why I have been sensing many things since last years and 95% of the thing came through, but that’s not a good thing for me since everything I sense is bad. I don’t know why I have such sense, but it is really a sad and bad thing to sense something you don’t want to know or something bad that you cannot avoid.
I wouldn’t say that I am having “6th sense” it could be just an “accurate assumption” instead of the so call “6th sense”. But making assumption on things that are not certain is just like what i always say “self-assumption leads self-destruction”. I know I am contradicting myself by saying that, but I cant help, things just keep zapping into my mind and all those uncertain things kept coming into my mind, and I am actually self-destructing right now. I am always worry about the uncertain things and the future.
Many people think that I am still in a bad mood because of what happened last Wednesday, but what pass is past and I don’t hold any grudge, I have learned how to let go, so please please don’t assume that I am still in that stupid situation, for your assumption is wrong. So thank you for the concern, you guys can stop worrying about that problem already. I am in a completely different situation right now.
I know that I shouldn’t be worrying about tomorrow for Jesus said in Matthew 6:43″Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”. This verse was actually shown by a brother advising another brother this morning, so happen I was there, and it just struck in to my mind, and I believe God is speaking to me. But it is not easy for me to do so, whenever I close my eye those thing keep coming into my mind, even the first thing that came to my mind when I wake up is those worry instead of God. These worries are distancing my relationship with God, and maybe because of that my heart is not in peace.
Arrggh, where is friends when you need their help ? At this moment I really need a friend to listen to my problem instead of keeping it to myself, but I can find none that is trust worthy, and I can’t find anyone that would keep it only between me and him, it always end up spreading somewhere else instead and I am very clear that once it is spread around then I would have to worry even more for the story could turn 180 degree, just like what had been spread around about the last Wednesday incident. I now dare not take the risk anymore, I have lost trust in that person because I thought it would be private, only between me and him, but everyone end up talking about it.
Only Jesus can be a true and trust worthy friend that understands all my needs. I have made a terrible and silly mistake in putting hope in people instead of Jesus and this is a very valuable lesson I learned.
P.s : Sorry for running out of topic, but it just came to my mind as i was typing all these. Kindly ignore my complains.
